It strikes me this morning that I have been getting away from the true reason why I am doing what I am doing. Not just why I am living my life, but why I am involved in spirituality.

Subtly, there has been a shift away from my why. The core why. My target crosshairs have drifted degrees toward various things that would fall in the category of “having a nice life.” When in reality, at the heart of the whole thing is an all-out search for Truth.

Frankly if your goal is just to “have a nice life” then spirituality is not the best way to get there. In fact, if you apply strong spiritual energies to a search for personal desires, you might be in for a bumpy ride. You might also manage to get all the things. Look at celebrities, look at trillionaires, look at the World Economic Forum, look at Hollywood. Not all of these people are evil, actually. Look at Aurora. But, they highlight the dualities inherent in anything (literally) and how vast those polarities can become when they are maxed out, taken to a very large scale.

If those desires are coming from god, or a genuine connectedness, then they are naturally balanced because they are coordinated with everything else at the level of source. If they are coming from the devil, aka ego, or disconnectedness, then they cause harm because they aren’t connected to the larger biome. They act like cancer cells. People, countries, economies, civilizations, tiny, everyday impulses and urges.

But at the heart of all these desires is one, single desire: the desire for union with the source. It’s a flawed desire because it’s based on the lie that we are separate from our source.

While this connectedness may seem theoretical or sound nice as a concept, or some kind of abstract metaphysical or spiritual reality, it is actually reflected at every level of the physical universe. At the mental level, it is a re-lamination of mind to the physical construct. At the biological level, it looks like a healthy gut biome. Unity is outpictured at every scale as connectedness.

Telepathy, Akashic records, mystic arts, these things are helpful parts of the whole, but if they are filling in for the source, then they are still poor replicas of the genuine article. The zen master Baneki said that there was no place for such “strange things” in his school. He also stated that he was not telepathic. Instead, because his mind was immersed in its source, everything he said was naturally perfect and landed perfectly in the subtle bodies of his students.

Buddha-mind, Christ-mind, Source-consciousness, Truth. These labels are pointing us to the goal. It is a goal that is found within us and lies at the heart of our consciousness. One of Baneki’s students asked him if living in Buddha-mind wasn’t living a pointless, goal-less life.

To that I will give my own answer. Buddha-mind is the point of life to which all other ‘points’ aspire. Once you are there, life becomes play because it is when we play that we don’t have a ‘point’ in mind. It’s heaven on earth not because the streets are paved in gold, but because we are all finally “off the clock” for good. A permanent holiday even as we do whatever it is we need to do to sustain life and be healthy.

But what exactly that activity is, from the moment you wake up, is up to the source, not to you. I think Solomon put it nicely, “In all your ways, acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy path.” Jesus reiterated and deepened it, “Take no heed for the morrow, what ye shall eat, or where ye shall sleep.” Bashar put some modern verve into it, “Follow your highest excitement every moment that you can to the greatest extent that you can with absolutely no insistence on the outcome.” While simple, the application of this teaching is quite challenging for most of us. This level of trust in reality and in self is foreign to the vast majority of humans at the time of this writing.

As Bashar says, “If you’re always following your excitement, then you’re always doing something exciting!”

Alright, enough for today, enough for this morning.