This blog is a wonderful archive of my mind. For some reason, my most unhinged moments seem to get recorded here. I tend to write here when I’m feeling a little off my rocker. It feels like that’s what people will want to read.

Something about being unhinged feels more authentic, a little more raw and real. On the other hand, perhaps for the sake of professionalism, it might be best to keep the lid on. So, here’s a little less unhinged version of what I’ve been leaning into lately.

As we all journey forward toward more authenticity, it can feel like we are leaving things behind. Things we have used to identify ourselves with, social constructs, personal and collective stories. These things are the makings of a structure which we can then use to relate to one another. As we relate, we choose our reactions—we are channeling this structure all the time.

Our grandmother’s prejudice, our dad’s lack of accountability, our mom’s decision to exclude a group of people from their humanity, all of these things are flowing through our expression until we consciously decide to step outside of them.

It can take time, and at times be incredibly uncomfortable to see these deep identity pieces for what they are. We identify with our personality, with these elements of our expression, because we think they keep us safe in a world that has been built upon categorization, exclusion and brutality. In short: fear. Fear tells us that we are separate from one another, that we must defend ourselves against everything outside of us, or what we deem to be safe which, if fear gets its way, will be an ever narrowing circle.

How do we reverse this shrinking process? Love. Love is indeed the answer. Love means the opposite of fear. It means inclusion, it means an ever expanding circle. In fact, the circle ultimately becomes infinite—until you are simply in the middle of a field with no outer limits, surrounded by yourself.

See, these become the last two polarities: separation leads eventually to nihilism when taken to its upper limit. On the other end is a total unity. In this unity, one is simultaneously completely alone and surrounded by an infinite number and categories of others. The alone-ness side creates a certain boredom within the self. This is the first wave of integration. It is uncomfortable, and a bit terrifying. The universe sort of “greys out” as all things blend into the expressions of a single being.

There is nothing to ultimately be afraid of, and we mistake fear for entertainment so it initially seems like the peace which comes from this recognition will be intolerably boring. This could not be farther from the truth.

We are to fear like kids to candy. The intense flavors and sickening sweetness of candy become ordinary until finally the upper limits of the taste buds are reached and the amount of sweetness has to increase beyond reason.

This is where we are as a collective. We want justice simply because we are used to it. We think that if the sinner isn’t hung in the town square, if the villain doesn’t suffer some kind of grizzly end, justice hasn’t been served and the world is still in danger. Things are not right until evil has been exterminated.

Actually, things are not right until the entire construct has been totally loved. History shows us how “good guys” and “bad guys” are relative. In fact, if you look at it, you are just as likely to be on the “bad guy” side as the good guy side. When love comes in, when we can truly love the entire universe and everyone and everything in it, then and only then is the world made right.

Good guys, bad guys, and everyone in between are creations of the Creator. This means that they are loved by their Source. They are learning. We are all learning. It doesn’t mean we condone everyone’s actions, or that we hang out with them, but it does mean that we love them, even if at a slight, or great distance.

The other facet of total unity: being surrounded by infinite others, is where the interest is added back in. When we get over fear-based feelings and move into inclusivity, we are then on an infinite journey of learning and exploration. What could be more exciting? Congratulations, all of a sudden, you become an infinite being of ever expanding, eternally reborn, exquisite uniqueness. Just look around, if everything and everyone around you is you, what do you have to be afraid of? And how exciting is it that you have no idea what the person ten feet away from you is thinking, or how their life is going? How your life is going?

Their life is your life, and yet you have no clue about it! This is not necessarily easy to grasp right away. But if we can move away from punishment, from a need for justice, retribution, and move into love, into inclusivity, when we can find a way to acknowledge the legitimate, worthy aspect of everyone in our world, this paradox becomes exhilarating.

We cease fiending for candy and begin our lifelong universe-wide exploration of fine cuisine. Which one sounds better to you?

How do I get there? I’ll share two things. The first one is an exercise called “metta.” The Buddhists came up with it and you can Google it. Seriously, Wikipedia explains it perfectly. The second thing to note is that Love, capital “L”, is a thing God, Source, is doing with itself everywhere and always. So real Love, the kind I’m talking about here, is something you “tune into,” rather than drumming up within yourself. It’s not an idea. It’s a real vibration that exists between all things, it is, quite literally the “force.” You may (or may not) not be able to levitate objects with it, but the analogy is 1:1 in terms of how it is described by Obi Wan. So, keep in mind that it is a program you are “getting with”, not creating from scratch, from your ideas of what love is. No. And metta, en exercise in the Christian idea of forgiveness, is how you remove all the obstacles within yourself that block this preexisting current of knowing and universal alignment.

It does live at the core of the world’s major religions, including the Abrahamic ones, and the Eastern ones. But here’s the secret, it is often mired in theology, morality, and you don’t need all that to tune into universal Love. Love wishes well for all beings, and until or unless it is indeed for even ones own worst enemies, it will not be truly felt in its full flower within the self. It will and does change the world.

So, welcome to your love-journey, I wish you well. It sounds cheesy and weak until you try it. Keep in mind it takes the most courage, the most fortitude, to be in love through life’s trials and the absolute absurdity present on Earth. And you have to forgive yourself first.

Okay, bye.